Confession

"Whoever wishes, let him take the water of life freely" (Revelation 22:17)

As I approached the end of my life, I realized with my whole being that I had lived and continue to live in a completely different world, that there is another world for which I was destined. It was as if I had gotten off a train at the wrong station, the one to which someone had given me a ticket, and somehow I had made a mistake. Where I was supposed to go, everything was real, but here, everything was temporary; everything had flown by like a dream. Why did I make a mistake, and who is to blame? Is it possible to correct my mistake and get a ticket to my station? It turned out that this became impossible for me THEN, because the ticket was given to me by One I didn't remember and didn't know how to find. He gave me a free ticket to the station of the city of love and happiness, but I made a mistake while on the train of my life, and, having forgotten and confused everything, I got off at the wrong station, ending up in a city alien to me.

That's when I began to reflect on my life, on the meaning of life. I realized that it couldn't be that in the infinity of everything, only man and his mind, the pinnacle of all rationality, exist. And if that's true, then can we really believe that there couldn't be a mind more sublime than the human mind, and that this mind can create all that is not only inconceivable to the human mind, but even incomprehensible? And this mind could exist beyond our infinite universe, the infinity of which humans define only by their own parameters, accessible to them.

If you're an atheist and you're reading my article and book, you won't find proof of God's existence. Believers don't engage in any scientific search for proof of God's existence, even though they have evidence in their personal lives. We must understand this simple truth. Truth isn't something that only you have known. If a person hasn't known something, for example, a newborn child, that doesn't mean there's no truth outside their world. Knowledge of God can only be achieved through the heart, not through the mind, although faith in God cannot be considered unreasonable, just like any faith, because every faith begins with some truly existing starting points.

There is no contradiction here, it's just not yet accessible to everyone. The path to God for a person lies through love for others. I used to think I could find the main truth in life through knowledge, through reading the books of great writers: I'll open this book and find the truth. Even reading the Bible gave me nothing. I didn't understand the truth because it wasn't revealed to me. Those who NEED Him come to God. As believers later told me when I lamented my late arrival: THERE'S A TIME FOR EVERYTHING!!! May God grant that time come sooner for you!